He's not really sure he will get better, not completely. Not with how deeply that thing had gotten into his brain and what it'd made him do to the people of Hawkins. It had cost so many lives and he didn't know how he was supposed to come back from that.
But he doesn't say that, doesn't want Eddie to look at him the way he should when he knows what Billy had done. He doesn't say anything, just squeezes Eddie's fingers again and sighs softly. "You gonna stay here with me? Nurse me back to health?
Eddie laughs, and for the first time since stepping into the hospital it feels light and free. There's nothing right now that should make him feel this way, like everything could be alright if they just will it to be so. But that doesn't stop him from feeling briefly carefree and boyish, grinning down at Billy as though he isn't hooked up to a litany of machines tasked to keeping him alive.
"If that's what it takes," He's grinning as he hunches over the hospital bed, presses a line of kisses that start at Billy's temple and follow the line of his jaw. They're not really alone, but in the waning hours of the night, with nurses more worried about when they'll get off shift, it feels like they might be.
"I don't mind coming back in a sexy little slip," Eddie lets himself fall back into his seat. There's still a lot they have to figure out, still a long road ahead for Billy's recovery, but he lets himself have this moment. "The other nurses might catch on though, when there's suddenly some hot young thing among their ranks."
Billy sighs softly at each little kiss and feels a smile come to his lips. It doesn't last long, he's too tired for that but it was there and it was real. He's not worried they'll get caught, which, again is more to do with his lack of energy than anything else.
"Yeah? You'd do that just for me?" He smiles again, a soft noise escaping his nose that would probably be a laugh if he didn't have a whole in chest that hurts even with the meds if he moves too much. "You saying I don't have a single, hot nurse out there? Damn, means you're gonna need to take the role."
"I'd do anything for you," Eddie admits with a breathy laugh. It's easy enough to let it be dismissed as something silly he's saying to help lighten the mood. But as soon as the words come out he realizes that they're true, that he means them in every iteration. It's awful, he thinks, that it took Billy nearly dying for him to realize that. An abrupt, awkward sort of laugh shakes out of him, and Eddie tries to ignore the fact that he feels like crying. No tears right now.
"I guess there were a couple that weren't too bad." Not that Eddie had been paying much attention when he had practically sprinted through the halls. It's easier though, to let their conversation drift away to something more lighthearted. "I'll keep an eye out for any that might look good in a tight dress. Until then, you've just got me."
"Yeah? Anything?" That sounds really fucking good and Billy will blame any tears that Eddie sees on being high off his ass on pain killers. When they'd started this thing, it had been purely a way of getting a release. They'd get high and fuck and then go back to their normal lives until the next time. Then they'd started spending time without it being just about drugs and sex.
And now Eddie was promising to do anything for him and Billy? Billy felt like if he wasn't before, he was pretty much in love with this fucking nerd.
"Gonna make sure I get the cute nurses?" He smiles softly. "You'd still be the hottest nurse here, Munson."
"Anything and everything," Eddie answers in a soft, lovestruck sort of way. His fingers brush over Billy's face, catch the tears against his fingertips and brushes them away. At one point, this was all supposed to be about sex, but Eddie can finally admit that it's grown into more than that. It only took Billy nearly dying from him to realize that fact. It was never meant to be like this, but Eddie should have known better. Now his heart only thrums in a pattern that spells out Billy Hargrove.
"Only the hottest nurses for you," Eddie smiles in a way that is almost pathetic, completely lovestruck. "Myself being the cream of the crop." He steals one more kiss before settling back in his chair. "I think sexy nurses will speed up your recovery."
"You're a fucking sap." It's said with affection and a soft smile and Billy feels as lovestruck as Eddie sounds and holy shit, he really is in love with this idiot and he's so ridiculously glad that he's here and this time the tears fall unbidden. Of course it would take him almost dying to realise how much he wants to be here, with the metalhead, dnd playing dork.
"Don't even need 'em." Billy smiles into the kiss and relaxes into the bed as soon Eddie sits down. "Just you."
"Yeah, you caught me." Eddie can't help but grin, despite the circumstances, despite the Billy looks like he's been quite literally to hell and back. There's still some part of him that's just plainly happy, happy that Billy is still here, that they still have the chance to figure things out-- together. "I guess I have a soft spot for bad boys with a shit attitude." It's said with equal affection, as Eddie leans down to nuzzle his face against Billy's. He can feel the wet tears against his face, and thinks some of his own might be in the mix.
"As soon as you're out of here--" Eddie tries not to think about how long that might be. All that matters is Billy will get out of here, one way or another. "We're getting the hell out of Hawkins. I don't care where, but I'm getting you out of this hellhole."
"Lucky for me then, huh?" Fuck he loves this idiot and he presses a soft kiss to Eddie's skin when he nuzzles against his face. It's a risk, being so affectionate in public like this but Billy can't bring himself to care too much right now, not with those curls brushing against his face and Eddie's tears on his own face.
"Never seen the ocean, actually," Eddie admits with a soft laugh, settles back just enough so he can really look at Billy. He looks like hell, obviously, but there's a light in his eyes Eddie isn't sure he's seen before. It's then that's he's struck with the feeling that they can make this work, somehow, that they can leave Hawkins in a cloud of dust and never have to think about these nightmares again.
"But I'm sure I'll figure out how to like it." Because he knows then that he would be willing to go anywhere with Billy, to the ends of the earth. 'The Beach' is hardly an ask at all. Eddie smiles fondly down at him, lets his fingers trace through Billy's curls, down his neck, over his chest. "Guess I'll have to work on my tan, huh?"
"In that case, you definitely have to take me to the beach." Fuck he missed the beach. The hot sand between his toes, the crashing of the waves, the feel of salt on his skin after a good surf. The only thing that could make it better would be going there with Eddie.
Billy smiles at the soft touch, barely feeling the fingers on his chest through the bandages, but he figures that's probably a good thing with how much pain he felt earlier. "You'd look great with a tan."
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But he doesn't say that, doesn't want Eddie to look at him the way he should when he knows what Billy had done. He doesn't say anything, just squeezes Eddie's fingers again and sighs softly. "You gonna stay here with me? Nurse me back to health?
"I could see you in a sexy nurse outfit."
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"If that's what it takes," He's grinning as he hunches over the hospital bed, presses a line of kisses that start at Billy's temple and follow the line of his jaw. They're not really alone, but in the waning hours of the night, with nurses more worried about when they'll get off shift, it feels like they might be.
"I don't mind coming back in a sexy little slip," Eddie lets himself fall back into his seat. There's still a lot they have to figure out, still a long road ahead for Billy's recovery, but he lets himself have this moment. "The other nurses might catch on though, when there's suddenly some hot young thing among their ranks."
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"Yeah? You'd do that just for me?" He smiles again, a soft noise escaping his nose that would probably be a laugh if he didn't have a whole in chest that hurts even with the meds if he moves too much. "You saying I don't have a single, hot nurse out there? Damn, means you're gonna need to take the role."
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"I guess there were a couple that weren't too bad." Not that Eddie had been paying much attention when he had practically sprinted through the halls. It's easier though, to let their conversation drift away to something more lighthearted. "I'll keep an eye out for any that might look good in a tight dress. Until then, you've just got me."
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And now Eddie was promising to do anything for him and Billy? Billy felt like if he wasn't before, he was pretty much in love with this fucking nerd.
"Gonna make sure I get the cute nurses?" He smiles softly. "You'd still be the hottest nurse here, Munson."
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"Only the hottest nurses for you," Eddie smiles in a way that is almost pathetic, completely lovestruck. "Myself being the cream of the crop." He steals one more kiss before settling back in his chair. "I think sexy nurses will speed up your recovery."
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"Don't even need 'em." Billy smiles into the kiss and relaxes into the bed as soon Eddie sits down. "Just you."
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"As soon as you're out of here--" Eddie tries not to think about how long that might be. All that matters is Billy will get out of here, one way or another. "We're getting the hell out of Hawkins. I don't care where, but I'm getting you out of this hellhole."
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"Yeah? How d'you feel about the beach?"
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"But I'm sure I'll figure out how to like it." Because he knows then that he would be willing to go anywhere with Billy, to the ends of the earth. 'The Beach' is hardly an ask at all. Eddie smiles fondly down at him, lets his fingers trace through Billy's curls, down his neck, over his chest. "Guess I'll have to work on my tan, huh?"
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Billy smiles at the soft touch, barely feeling the fingers on his chest through the bandages, but he figures that's probably a good thing with how much pain he felt earlier. "You'd look great with a tan."